"Hi... I’m anorexic…"

Question

Hi.. I’m anorexic.. Well I haven’t been diagnosed or anything and no one knows about it so lets just say I cover everything. My last post didn’t work so I had to type it all again lol... I’m sorry to bother u I’m just a waste of time and space but I have a few questions. 1. I haven’t been feeling very well for the past few days and I haven’t been able to get out of bed until now.. Yesterday and the day before that I wasn’t really able to get to sleep because of my heart.. I didn’t really know what was going on it felt like I was going to have a heart attack I was in a lot of pain and it went on for a lot of hours including the day too. It was very hard for me to even sit up because I felt that I was soooo weak and fragile.. Next time my heart goes like really weird like I’m going to have a heart attack should I call e0ergency services? I don’t know if my situation is important enough I was really scared that if I went back to sleep I wouldn’t wake up.. I don’t want ANYONE to know about my eating disorder anyway so that day I just decided to pass because my mom was out and I was thinking what if she comes back and sees them at my house or what if she comes back and realises I’m gone? 2. I’m 14 now, and I’ve only had my period once which was last year when I was 13, I just want to know do u think that anorexia has affected my chance in having kids yet? I’ve been a bit worried and thinking about that.. I’m not going to a doctor to talk about it to them my whole family goes to the same doctor so I think it’s kind of impossible because my mom has the card for me, my baby brother and her.. I’m also afraid of doctors and I haven’t left my house for over a month.. Maybe more than a month actually..I’m just too disgusting 3. I take a vitamin for hair, skin and nails and I was wondering will my hair still fall out if I take it? I barely even brush my hair that much anymore which is bad but it used to fall out in chunks but I’m confused now.. I guess I just never have the energy to do anything anymore because I usually sleep for over 13 hours which is pretty not normal.. Thankyou very much :) I don’t really expect a reply anyway I’m not rly worth it to be honest lol I haven’t written here in months and I’ve had like two other accounts.. idk if u can tell who I am but umm yea I don’t think it will matter.. I know u are really really busy and I’m soooo sorry for posting okay I know that theres other people out there who really need their post responded to and that would hurt sooo much if I knew that it was because of me.. (edit)

Answer from counsellor

First let me begin by saying that YOU and YOUR post are just as important as anyone else's and we are never too busy to take the time to answer any questions you have. I'm sorry to hear that you're struggling with your eating disorder alone. It must be very difficult. :( I'm going to answer your questions one at a time, in order to keep everything organised. I hope that's o.k! 1. You should DEFINITELY call emergency services if you're having irregular heart beats and chest pain! Actually you should go and see a doctor as soon as possible. You are experiencing very serious symptoms and you need help. I know that you said that you don't want anyone to know about your eating disorder and that you're afraid of doctors but you also are afraid of going to sleep and not waking up. Things could be getting worse the longer you wait! 2.The best person to talk to about your future fertility is your doctor. I can tell you that girls that struggle with eating disorders can have their periods stop due to their small percentage of body fat. Usually once that percentage rises (i.e the person gains weight) their periods will begin again. 3.If you're not eating and not getting the proper nutrients, taking a vitamin will probably not make a big difference especially if you're already losing large amounts of hair. You're absolutely right, sleeping for 13 hours a day and not having energy is not normal. You need to see a doctor. I'm a little confused as to whether you consider your eating disorder a problem or not. The reason I'm saying that is your user name and the last line of your post. I truly hope that you see, sooner rather than later, that very serious things are happening to your body. I'm very concerned because your health seems to be getting worse and worse. Anorexia is a disease and in order for things to change you need professional help. I hope this helps and I hope that you get the help you NEED and DESERVE. Take care and I'll be thinking good thoughts for you.