This question was submitted to Kids Help Phone by a young person and answered by one of our professional counsellors. Before you start reading, we want to let you know the following question mentions thoughts of suicide and experiences of bullying that may be upsetting.
K i ahev issues cause i edit my self alot and i dont know what to do cause i get bullied pretty bad at school i get notes left on my binder and stuff and they usally go like this ” you should go f*** you’re self you little f***** go edit you edit” and i have no friends it’s rewally hard i dont tell my parents cause ive been in the hospital before for attempting to edit and stuff and im scared they will [upt me in the hospital again and in thinking about edit again I NEED HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It sounds like you are feeling pretty lonely, frustrated, and afraid. Please know that your feelings are valid and you deserve the space to talk about them. Your post mentions that you don’t feel comfortable talking to your parents about what you are experiencing. Can you think of any other safe adults in your life that you can reach out to for support (such as a teacher, counsellor, or relative)? It is difficult for people to help you if they do not know what is going on in your life. You also mentioned that you have received services from the hospital in the past—are you still connected with a counsellor or other mental health professional? If you are not connected with them anymore or you are worried about what might happen if you tell them how you are feeling, you can receive free counselling by calling us at 1-800-668-6868. Phone counselling at Kids Help Phone is completely anonymous and confidential, that means we don’t know who or where you are so we can’t send you to the hospital unless you choose to share the information with us. You have already taken a big step recognizing that you need help and reaching out to us. Having someone to talk to about your feelings without judgement can be a really great tool for processing difficult situations. Plus, counselling can help you come up with different strategies for coping with emotional pain and avoiding self-harm. You are dealing with a lot of hard things on your own. Know that we are here for you if you want to reach out again. Take care of yourself.