This question was submitted to Kids Help Phone by a young person and answered by one of our professional counsellors. Before you start reading, we want to let you know the following question mentions thoughts of suicide that may be upsetting.
I have thoughts of suicide and I am feeling lonely. My life feels as if it’s being rejected. I feel like I am in a hole that is so deep and my sadness is deep and I am also feeling guilty for things I know are not my fault. I am always daydreaming, and feeling anxiety, stress, helplessness and loss of self-control. I need help I write about death and I love it and my family thinks I need help. Is this true? I just already attempted suicide like last week, I really know I am mental a little only in words in my poems. Please if your reading this helps me I need your help. Before I take whats left of me.
It takes alot of courage to share your story. If at any moment you feel as you will as if you will end your life, then you should definetly call 911. Another thing you can do is call us here anytime at 1.800.668.6868. I want to let you know that we are here for you and we care about you. We are here if you want to talk about your feelings or get some things off your chest. Another thing we are able to do is help you find some resources in your community like counselling or other organizations that The feelings are overwhelming, I’m so sorry to hear that you have had thoughts of ending your life. I completely understand how scarry that must be for you.